They whisper NO.!!

In the stillness of night, where dreams and painful memories blend,
I am haunted by the memory of your love that never existed.

I am not who I dreamt to be,
I am someone whom you wanted me to be.

I changed myself so much, just to make you happy.
But you were that fog, who blurred my brightest day,
And also a cloud of darkness that suffocated my space.

Between the stars and endless sea,
I sit with memories of your Love that never was and never is!

I kept cleaning myself with the dirty water,
You accused my eyes for seeing the dirt,
And cursed my face for the insanity.
In your twisted game, you conveniently forgot,
It was your hand that gave me this water.
 
Yet in my dreams, you still appear,
Just to remind me how disgusting you were!

I wake up hugging my tears filled with silent screams,
Thinking someday, somehow, I might heal,
And once again, learn how to smile.

These itching scars of betrayal are beyond control.
Your whispers of doubt still block me from living a happy life.
With every step forward, they whisper NO!!
But I will never let your darkness define my future.

In the depths of despair, I am discovering my worth,
From the ashes of pain, I will rebuild my world.
Because I know, I am not who I dreamt to be,
But I am someone whom I choose to be.

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